I Admit I Loved The Wrong Person, But I Never Had Anything With Ruggedman- Toni Payne

Oh dear… I agree people should let this go though,
especially when Ruggedman himself has denied it on several occasions. Even 9ice
himself once said he wasn’t referring to his one-time friend, Ruggedman and his
estranged wife, Toni Payne. So the Chris Brown, Drake and Karrueche issue came
up, and Toni lend her voice and all hell was let loose. People started calling
her names and was like well why won’t she be on the defensive side, since she
was also once in the same shoes. This morning Toni went online in an emotional
laden voice (yes if you read what she wrote, you will know she’s hurt) to ask
people to stop, and in as much as she likes to ignore, it’s hard because she is
also human. Her words;

The other day I lost my cool when I shud av ignored cos I
let people who do not matter get to me. It got me trending in a way I did not
like and that for me I can’t ignore. Till today, I get an unreasonable amount
of hate for something I did not do. I ignore most times but this time I reacted.

Iv been thru a lot so sometimes I find them hard to ignore, maybe because Iv
addressed it to the point that it feels like it will never go away. Iv been
called every name in the book, bitch, attn seeker, etc simply because I loved
the wrong person but still I held my head high choosing to carry on. I do my
best to stay true to who I am and be a good person. Tho sum may deem it
weakness, I’m a free spirit and av no problem baring my soul so yes I’ll admit,
even though I’m strong, it sometimes gets to me.

Not because their opinions
matter but because I even have to deal with it in the first place and most of
the time it feels surreal. I understand that not everyone will like me, so they
will use anything they can against me. I probably wouldn’t care if it was
something I actually did. Then I’ll accept that It is what it is. I wish I
could explain the feeling of being wrongly accused in that magnitude. It’s like
a million welts digging deep at your soul, and no one seems to understand you.

To some it’s funny, to some it’s a headline, to me, it’s reassurance I have to
give my son that a nasty rumor was badly mismanaged. It’s the explaining I will
be doing in the years to come. It’s irritating when it keeps popping up and I
have to turn the other cheek but I’m learning each day to always keep my cool.
I’m happy and content but also human. Excuse me if I react sometimes to
stupidity thrown in my direction..

God gave me a fresh start and for that I
should be grateful.. Apologies if I disappointed anyone by clapping back…..I
promise next time to try harder to ignore and hopefully this will be the last
of it… Xoxo #Osha